After six years of retirement, last night I had a vivid intense dream about a situation that I had to face on a daily basis with my former employer. Not sure if I should categorize it as a dream or as a nightmare.
Dreamt that I was still working at the health center facing the same challenges with our clinic mental health department in order to assist our HIV/AIDS patients. Sometimes HIV/AIDS patients are dealing with a myriad of psychosocial conditions rather than a simple dual diagnosis. From sexual abuse, PTSD, major depression, chronic physical diseases, drug addiction, on top of their HIV diagnosis.
It was a constant frustration dealing with the long wait times for appointments trying to assist a patient in crisis who needed immediate attention. Not to mention the unqualified staff, and dealing with individuals who are indifferent and lack the empathy to the plight of the less fortunate.
I was so frustrated in the dream, that I forced myself to wake up. As much as I miss my old job and loved what I did at the health center, I don't know how I lasted so long. Carlos Gardel sang the line "que veinte años no es nada" (that 20 years is nothing) in the classic 1935 tango "Volver". Twenty-six years is a long time. It is exhausting dealing with unqualified staff who lack both skill and basic work ethics, and coworkers who ignore human needs instead of offering support.






